Thursday night thoughts

Well as I sit here in the library with my buddy Clint. I've been in library over three hours every night this week! WHY?! Because it's dead week! Next week is finals.. ahh. And if my parents read this sorry to say but I was STRESSING about passing my classes.. but I TOTALLY AM! yay. Plus I've worked my ass off this week to get caught up with all my math homework, etc. And it's finally over! All my classes are officially done :) And I only have two finals next week on Thursday. I do work a couple of days but by this time next week I'll be home and happy :) probably.. haha And FINALLY my tattoo appointment is made for May 7th. I'm more stressed about that then finals to be completely honest. Because its going to hurt like a mother trucker but I'm really excited for it. I'll be sure to post a picture of it :) And talk about how painful it was. HELL YEAH. It's weird to think for the rest of my life whenever I look at my back there will be a tattoo there, I think I can handle it :) I've waited for about a year, and I've wanted this design for about two years.. And it's a congratulations to myself for making it through the hardest year of my life! I'm offically going to Weber next year, yay! I'm worried though about finding a job. I want one that is as rewarding as the one I have now, but I know that'll be difficult. But anyways a week from today I'll be all moved out and ready to goooooo. Thinking about packing up all my shit (I have a lot) sounds awful :( haha. ohh well. My dad doesn't even want to take one day off of work to help me! What a brat! Hopefully one of my friends in Bountiful will come up and help me.. haha doubt it. So.. that's all I really have to say tonight. I'll let you know how final week goes. Im sure the next blog post will be about my fun exciting tattooo yeepppeee yay :)

lindsayy

Confused.

Wow another blog post.. haha. I feel like I need to write this one to help clear my mind.. I think this post might piss some people off, but I don't care. I'm just wondering what my best choices for next year are. A huge part of me wants to move back home, I have this strange feeling it will fix everything. But I know it won't. I miss my best friends, I miss sunday nights with my parents. I miss eating dinner with my parents and not having to think about the drive up to Logan. But honestly, I'm not sure if it's actually Logan I dread, but responsibility. I don't care who denies the fact, college is hard. Moving away is hard, shit half of my friends won't even move out of their house. The claim cause it's too expensive but I know they are scared shitless. Which I was too. I remember signing up for housing.. I hurried and did it before I could stop myself. I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I think moving would make all the boys I liked come crawling, I thought it would make all my best friends realize how important I was. And sure it did, for like a month. But eventually shit goes back to normal, and I'm stuck wondering if going back to Bountiful is really the right choice. I feel like my choice to move to Logan was based on other peoples opinions, that it would make people feel something that they didn't. The only person I ended up hurting was myself. In the long run it has shown me what is important in life though. I look at it as like you think you are punishing other people but really you are just hurting yourself. Like getting bad grades to piss off your parents, sure they are disappointed but in the long run your just screwing yourself over. I think moving away has really made me appreciate Bountiful.. I don't know. I feel like I've only physically moved myself to Logan, mentally I'm still stuck in Bountiful. If not I would have made more friends and maybe would have stayed more than one weekend up here. I feel like I didn't make the commitment so I wouldn't replace my friends. Although I've made ten times more of an effort to keep the friendships strong. I came home pretty much every weekend to see them. What to doo,, what to doo..

Monday Night

As my Monday night winds down I can't help but think about the next couple of months. I only have two weeks left of classes, and then finals week. I only have two finals on Thursday! So I plan on just working a lot. I might not get a job for awhile in Bountiful so I gotta make sure I have money for Sasquatch! Which I'm still totally looking forward too. It's going to be bananananas. :) So what have I been up too the last couple of whatever? Just going to school and whatnot. I went to Arcade Fire a week ago today and it was so perfect. It was the best concert I've ever been too. I know I say that A LOT but honestly, I just lost control and danced like it was nobodies business! Then I convinced my parents to buy tickets to Outside Lands, which is a music festival in San Francisco! It's in May, and we rented a house that's walking distance from the festival. Also my best friend, Camilla, is coming with me! WAHOOO. We are also going to Sasquatch together so it's going to be an awesome summer for both of us. I'm excited to see Arcade Fire again! Also The Black Keys!! And the Shins!!! I will have seen most of my favorite bands after this summer. I feel soo lucky. I'm so glad I have parents that understand how much I love music. They share the same love and taste! :))) Yay! I also haven't been as stressed or anxious lately! I wanna blame my anti depressants but I just feel better all over. I finally had my evale at work today! I got a 97% which is amazing!! I'm way proud of myself. I'm so grateful I have the job I have,, it's been the hardest but most rewarding. I think it not only has improved how to interact with children but also how to be a good teacher. I've learned how to be more patient and how to deal with problem behavior, haha. This weekend was pretty fun too! Friday night was a blast, it didn't end very classy although. And I felt like balls the next day! Nothing like throwing up in a parking lot with your Mom. At least she isn't naive to the fact that some teenagers party. :) haha. I'm definitely done for a long while though,  just gotta power through the next couple of weeks! Then Summer!! I plan on getting two or maybe even three jobs this summer and just working my assss off! I've pretty much drained my savings account this year. From almost $5000 to $2000... Where did all that money go? hahaha. Well I'm pretty satisfied with life at this point. I've been having a lot of dreams lately about having a boyfriend.. when I wake up it kind of makes me feel like crap.. but oh well. I'm done looking! We'll just see if something comes along. Plus I'm way too immature for such a thing. And I'm too self centered haha. :) Well I hope I get another post in before the school year ends. :)