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Take this survey

1. What was the highlight of your week? last night with westin

2. Whose car were you in last? my own

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? tomorrow when i see my boyfriend

4. What color shirt are you wearing? blue and white tyedye

5. How long is your hair? long!

6. Are you good looking? not really haha

7. Last movie you watched? 50/50

8. Who were you with? a theater full of people

9. Last thing you ate? string cheese

10. Last thing you drank? water

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken? last week kind of

12. Who came over last? westin

13. Are you happy right now? idkk

14. What did you say last? night

15. Where is your phone? on my bed

16. What color are your eyes? blue green

17. Are you left-handed? no

18. Spell your name without vowels: linds[y]

19. Do you have any pets? annie and meow

20. Favorite Vacation? i have manyy

21. What do you dislike currently? nobody really

22. What are you listening to? grey's anatomy

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? my boyfriend

24. What is your favorite scent? westin

25. Who makes you happiest? myself

26. What were you doing at midnight last night? at my brothers apartment

27. When is your birthday? july 29th

28. Who has the same phone as you? no idea

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?not too long ago

30. Do you read your horoscope? sometimes

31. Where was the last place you bought something? walgreens

32. How do you feel about your hair right now? i love it but my roots are still growing in :(

33. Do you bite your nails? noo

34. Do you have any expensive jewelry? not really

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery? ...

36. Myspace or facebook? facebook duh

37. How fast have you driven a car? i dunno 90

38. Have you ever smoked? yepp

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school? funny

40. Do you have Verizon? nopppe

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for? nice ones

42. Do you have any hidden talents? nopee

43. Favorite Song? good question

44. Do you like to sing at all? not infront of people

45. Dream Job? not working and a shit ton of money

46. Where does most of your family live? here

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings? i have a brother

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? someways

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up? what time is it

50. Do you drink? on occasion

51. Know any other languages? si -ish

52. Ever write a coded message? no?

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding? nopee

54. Do you have any children? millions

55. Did you take a nap today? thats like all i did

56. Who has the same birthday as you? jacy!

57. Ever met anyone famous before? kind of

58. Do you want to be famous one day? nope just known for good things

59. Any Pet Peeves? SOOO many

60. Are you multitasking right now? i guess soo

61. Do you like Britany Spears? nope

62. What is your least favorite chore? them in general

63. Last place you drove your car? home from my brothers

64. Ever been out of the country? yess

65. Where were you born? here

66. Could you handle being in the military? not even

67. What is your average cell phone bill? idk ask my dad

68. Who are you thinking about right now? lifee

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard? last night

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own? enough

71. Are your toes always painted? nope!

72. How many piercings do you have? four

73. What are you doing today? sleeping

74. Have you ever been gambling? not really

75. When is the last time you updated your page? ?

76. Do you like rollercoasters? somewhat

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world? when i was ver ylittle

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character? not really

79. Last thing you cooked? umm!!

80. How's the weather? fine

81. Do you e-mail? what kind of question is that

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone? broke it

83. Last time you were sick? like everyday

84. What states have you lived in? utah

85. Do you wish you could move? yep1

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes? no

87. What is your dream car? slug bug

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have? not anymoree

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be? with westin

90. Are you happy with your life?yess

Been a while

Oh man, I feel like the worst blogger, not that I really ever considered myself one. But when you have a life, school, and a job, there isn't much time to blog. Not to mention not depressed.. haha. I'm honestly the happiest I've ever been, for as long as I can remember. I could blame it on my wonderful boyfriend, or the fact that I'm living at home and going to school in Salt Lake.. But I think it's just because I'm content with myself, where I am, and what I'm doing. But all those other things don't put a negative spin on things. I find it ironic that a year ago I was so anxious to leave this place and find out what was awaitin' me in the land of LOGAN. But all I found was anti depressants and an urge to drink. Not saying that most of it wasn't my fault and my negativity towards it all, but it made those things a lot more real. I am grateful I moved there and got my job at ASSERT. And learned that living alone is amazing, haha. But as I sit here and right this post in my very own room, on my comfy bed, with my colorful walls and pictures of my friends and favorite artist surrounding me, I can't help but feel happy.
This summer instilled a lot of firsts for me. My first real relationship and I'm not afraid to admit but first real non drunken make out. And much more then that ;) But the fact that I waited to do these things with somebody who I really love has made them that much more special. As I was younger and looking  forward to things like losing my virginity or meeting my boyfriends family, it scared the shit out of me. But with Westin everything feels right. I feel like I've been the worst friend in the world though. I promised myself that if I were to get a serious boyfriend my friends would ALWAYS come first NO MATTER WHAT. But now that I'm in the situation I see how hard that is. Being without the person you love makes it harder to enjoy things. Even going to the store to pick up milk, or going to get gas is 100 times better with the person you love. I may just be smitten right now but I'm not that ignorant. I know that relationships aren't always rainbows and flowers. There is conflict and compromise, which we've already dealt with so far. But if you love somebody enough your willing to change the fact that your lazy to make the other person happy.. I'm not saying that I'm going to be with im forever and I want to marry him blahhdeeblah blah. I keep my head out of the clouds for the most part. But I'm saying that moving in together and getting a pug named Bagels in a couple of years if we are still together couldn't hurt right? haha. :)

Life

Well it's been a minute haha. And live is pretty good :) This summer has been pretty awesome just been hanging out with friends! Sleeping and working, :) Oh and I got a boyfriend hahah. I still can't believe I have one but I really like him and we get along really well so hopefully things work out for the long term ;) Besides that nothing really new! Just excited for the rest of the summer! I wish I was partying more.. haha. Oh well. When it happens, it happens.

Myspace status

1. What time did you get up this morning?
I haven't really slept..



2. How do you like your steak?
Good



3. What was the last movie you saw?
I'm watching austin powers..



4. What is your favorite TV show?
Hey Arnold.



5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
washington



6. What did you have for breakfast?
mickeydees



7. What is your favorite cuisine?
good food?



8. What foods do you dislike?
nasty food



9. Favorite Place to Eat?
Spankies



10. Favorite dressing?
ranch or vinegrette


11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
chevy malibu! my babeh


12. What are your favorite clothes?
forever 21



13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
anywhere really.



14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
full!



15. Where would you want to retire?
somewhere with a lake



16. Favorite time of day?
night



17. Where were you born?
slc



18. What is your favorite sport to watch?

none..

19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
this ain't no myspace



20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
BLAH



21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
meth?

22. Bird watcher?
yes and caller



23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night



24. Do you have any pets?
annie and meow!



25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
i like somebody :)


26. What did you want to be when you were little?
A teacher



27. What is your best childhood memory?
tooo much!

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
both



29. Are you married?
oh you bet



30. Always wear your seat belt?
i sure doo


31. Been in a car accident?
a couple



32. Any pet peeves?
People who hate things for no reason


33 Favorite Pizza Topping?
pineapple and olives



34. Favorite Flower?
dandelions



35. Favorite ice cream?
i don't care

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
spankies



37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
none!



38. From whom did you get your last email?
my cell phone

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit cards?
forever 21



40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
kind of!



41. Like your job?
Yes i really do


42. Broccoli?
cooked.



43. What was your favorite vacation?

sasquatch


44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
um i dunnno?



45. What are you listening to right now?
watchinggg gold member



46. What is your favorite color?
Teal

47. How many tattoos do you have?
uno!


48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
THREE MILLION


49. What time did you finish this quiz?
11:54 am


50. Coffee Drinker?
no its grosss

Summmer

Have I mentioned how much I love doing nothing? Yes well, here we go: I love doing nothing. This past week I have pretty much sat around, hung out with friends, spent money, etc! I did have a job interview and get a job so I figure I'm not TOTALLY wasting my time. ;] But! Yes! So I don't even start my job until June 2nd, SO! I still have the rest of May to just chill before I'll be working a LOT. Oh well, having money is nice. And a week from Wednesday the 25th I think,, I'm leaving to Washington! :D yay!! I'm really excited. I have been there since I was like 11 and I'm going for a four day music festival! What else could I ask for? I'll be seeing Modest Mouse for the 5th time, so I'm feel pretty happy about that. Plus I'm going with my two best friends, so uhh YES! I have a feeling it's going to be completely nuts, I hear nobody ever sleeps.. :] Great way to kick off the summer. Sadly like the next day I get back I start work but that's okay. Anyways.. Nothing new really. I've had a good summer so far, being exercising and not eating a whole bunch haha. And my tattoo is pretty much healed, it's still a little itchy. But I freaking love it. :] I'll try to write some more once stuff actually starts happening :]

Lindsay

Tattoo

I finally got it! And it was painful.. but I handled it. Definitely the first two minutes were the worse and the it got better. I'm really happy about it though! It's beautiful. And everybody say the couple of days afterwards would be just as painful but it doesn't even hurt :) I'm just waiting for it to start peeling/itching. NOT FUN. Anyways I'll post a picture! I love it

1:46 am

And still not asleep. A lot has kept me up tonight.. Including moving back home in two days, my tattoo on saturday, and obsessing about a stupid boy. You would think finals would be number one in my head but they sadly fall last. I don't know if I'll miss Logan, I feel like I never gave it a real chance. I was dying to move back home the day I moved here. I will admit that moving here has made me really appreciate home and my best friends. Although it has really shown me who gives a rats ass about me. I thought that maybe at the end of my first year of college I would be one step closer to knowing who I am. But I'm just confused as ever. I have confirmed somethings about myself. Number one being I want to work with small kids. I don't know if I still want to be a 2nd grade teacher, but working with kids under the age of five is something I really enjoy. I've also learned that it's okay to seek help somewhere else. There are somethings we can't deal with on our own. If that means seeking help from a doctor, your parents, or a best friend don't be ashamed to do so. :) I may have had to start taking anti depressants to get through my first year of college but I'm grateful I was brave enough to admit to myself I had a problem. They have really helped, I can SOMETIMES fall asleep at night, I can laugh at my mistakes. I also have confidence in myself now. I still have a very low self esteem and it's going to take years to get over it. But I'm glad I've realized some of my self destructive actions that keep me from fully accepting myself. I want to blame my mom and her influence, but when it all comes down to it, I can't have her insecurities affect me for the rest of my life. I'm not the skinniest person in the world, and the only time that bothers me is when I see my mom looking at my like something is wrong. Wtf. I like eating sooo whatt? Just because she is happier being skinner doesn't mean that's how it is for the rest of us.. Blah. See? I have a looong way to go. But I can do it :) Another thing I've realized is that I like to drink. Not good right? Probably not smart to admit on my blog but it's something that is kind of scary. Especially because alcoholism runs in my family. At least I've accepted the fact that it could become a problem. But I care WAY to much about my future, future relationships, my family, and my friends to let it become a habit. I feel like I look to it as a way to become more fun and do to things that I'm too scared to do while sober. But that's one thing I need to overcome, I can't hide behind alcohol every time I want to to kiss a boy.  Sure it makes it easier and a lot more fun. But it means more when it's sober. To rely on alcohol makes me a coward. I know I'm young and everybody self medicates, but I want to do it in a safe way. I will only try to look at partying as something fun to do every couple of months, ha. Anyways about a boy, I've started something awkward in two drunken nights. One thing about alcohol is it really messes up feelings, as if they are real or false. I don't really know what I want right now, I know I hate commitment and being in a relationship. But I'm sick of feeling like I'll never being able to grow out of this fear. The only way to overcome it is to go in headfirst. :) We'll see if I'm brave enough. Okay tattoo. :) I'm so nervous. I know that I can handle the pain and the outcome is going to be beautiful. And waiting for things makes them mean that much more.. I'm grateful I have parents who understand this is what I want. And I'm glad I'm mature enough to realize that if I want to be a teacher someday and be taken seriously I can't have a huge tattoo in a relieving place. Although I don't show off my back very much, now when I do it will make it that much more special. I'm thinking that some of these things I shouldn't be talking about in a such a public place but it's really helping me clear my mind. Plus how many people actually read this blog? Not many I'm assuming. :) But I'm really happy because I got a job in SLC! I'll be doing pretty much the same exact thing I do now at the pre-school but in a private home. Speaking of which tomorrow is my last day at ASSERT. It def is a bitter-sweet feeling. I've learned ten times more things in this job then I did in any of my classes. Most importantly I've learned to be patient, which is one skill I'll need as an adult. I'm grateful I got the chance to get this experience, it can only help me in the future. Most kids I know would thank heavenly father for such a blessing,, ha! But I'm thanking myself for being a strong independent person. Moving an hour and a half away from home without any friends or family. Throwing myself into a job that I know nothing about. This has probably been the hardest year of my life, and the most stressful. But that's what college is all about right? And I'm so thankful I have had the support of my family and friends. The ones that stuck around I know our true to me. Now I just have to focus on two more finals and packing of my WHOLE freaking room. Anne is coming up tomorrow to spend the night and help me :) yay. And then on Thursday my mom is coming to help too. :) And then I'll be going home for good. Who knows if I'll finish my degree in Logan? Who cares,, for now I want to focus on what makes me happy. I don't care if people say I failed on moving out and going away for school. Life is too damn short to be a in a place that makes you feel bad. I want to look back at my college life and see it as something that made me happy. :) Yay. haha.

Anyways maybe I should try to sleep, I have to work at 9:45. Blah! Plus I didn't mean to offend anybody about the heavenly father thing, I'm just trying to make a point that I can do all this with faith in myself. :) Smell ya later.

Lindsay

Thursday night thoughts

Well as I sit here in the library with my buddy Clint. I've been in library over three hours every night this week! WHY?! Because it's dead week! Next week is finals.. ahh. And if my parents read this sorry to say but I was STRESSING about passing my classes.. but I TOTALLY AM! yay. Plus I've worked my ass off this week to get caught up with all my math homework, etc. And it's finally over! All my classes are officially done :) And I only have two finals next week on Thursday. I do work a couple of days but by this time next week I'll be home and happy :) probably.. haha And FINALLY my tattoo appointment is made for May 7th. I'm more stressed about that then finals to be completely honest. Because its going to hurt like a mother trucker but I'm really excited for it. I'll be sure to post a picture of it :) And talk about how painful it was. HELL YEAH. It's weird to think for the rest of my life whenever I look at my back there will be a tattoo there, I think I can handle it :) I've waited for about a year, and I've wanted this design for about two years.. And it's a congratulations to myself for making it through the hardest year of my life! I'm offically going to Weber next year, yay! I'm worried though about finding a job. I want one that is as rewarding as the one I have now, but I know that'll be difficult. But anyways a week from today I'll be all moved out and ready to goooooo. Thinking about packing up all my shit (I have a lot) sounds awful :( haha. ohh well. My dad doesn't even want to take one day off of work to help me! What a brat! Hopefully one of my friends in Bountiful will come up and help me.. haha doubt it. So.. that's all I really have to say tonight. I'll let you know how final week goes. Im sure the next blog post will be about my fun exciting tattooo yeepppeee yay :)

lindsayy

Confused.

Wow another blog post.. haha. I feel like I need to write this one to help clear my mind.. I think this post might piss some people off, but I don't care. I'm just wondering what my best choices for next year are. A huge part of me wants to move back home, I have this strange feeling it will fix everything. But I know it won't. I miss my best friends, I miss sunday nights with my parents. I miss eating dinner with my parents and not having to think about the drive up to Logan. But honestly, I'm not sure if it's actually Logan I dread, but responsibility. I don't care who denies the fact, college is hard. Moving away is hard, shit half of my friends won't even move out of their house. The claim cause it's too expensive but I know they are scared shitless. Which I was too. I remember signing up for housing.. I hurried and did it before I could stop myself. I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I think moving would make all the boys I liked come crawling, I thought it would make all my best friends realize how important I was. And sure it did, for like a month. But eventually shit goes back to normal, and I'm stuck wondering if going back to Bountiful is really the right choice. I feel like my choice to move to Logan was based on other peoples opinions, that it would make people feel something that they didn't. The only person I ended up hurting was myself. In the long run it has shown me what is important in life though. I look at it as like you think you are punishing other people but really you are just hurting yourself. Like getting bad grades to piss off your parents, sure they are disappointed but in the long run your just screwing yourself over. I think moving away has really made me appreciate Bountiful.. I don't know. I feel like I've only physically moved myself to Logan, mentally I'm still stuck in Bountiful. If not I would have made more friends and maybe would have stayed more than one weekend up here. I feel like I didn't make the commitment so I wouldn't replace my friends. Although I've made ten times more of an effort to keep the friendships strong. I came home pretty much every weekend to see them. What to doo,, what to doo..

Monday Night

As my Monday night winds down I can't help but think about the next couple of months. I only have two weeks left of classes, and then finals week. I only have two finals on Thursday! So I plan on just working a lot. I might not get a job for awhile in Bountiful so I gotta make sure I have money for Sasquatch! Which I'm still totally looking forward too. It's going to be bananananas. :) So what have I been up too the last couple of whatever? Just going to school and whatnot. I went to Arcade Fire a week ago today and it was so perfect. It was the best concert I've ever been too. I know I say that A LOT but honestly, I just lost control and danced like it was nobodies business! Then I convinced my parents to buy tickets to Outside Lands, which is a music festival in San Francisco! It's in May, and we rented a house that's walking distance from the festival. Also my best friend, Camilla, is coming with me! WAHOOO. We are also going to Sasquatch together so it's going to be an awesome summer for both of us. I'm excited to see Arcade Fire again! Also The Black Keys!! And the Shins!!! I will have seen most of my favorite bands after this summer. I feel soo lucky. I'm so glad I have parents that understand how much I love music. They share the same love and taste! :))) Yay! I also haven't been as stressed or anxious lately! I wanna blame my anti depressants but I just feel better all over. I finally had my evale at work today! I got a 97% which is amazing!! I'm way proud of myself. I'm so grateful I have the job I have,, it's been the hardest but most rewarding. I think it not only has improved how to interact with children but also how to be a good teacher. I've learned how to be more patient and how to deal with problem behavior, haha. This weekend was pretty fun too! Friday night was a blast, it didn't end very classy although. And I felt like balls the next day! Nothing like throwing up in a parking lot with your Mom. At least she isn't naive to the fact that some teenagers party. :) haha. I'm definitely done for a long while though,  just gotta power through the next couple of weeks! Then Summer!! I plan on getting two or maybe even three jobs this summer and just working my assss off! I've pretty much drained my savings account this year. From almost $5000 to $2000... Where did all that money go? hahaha. Well I'm pretty satisfied with life at this point. I've been having a lot of dreams lately about having a boyfriend.. when I wake up it kind of makes me feel like crap.. but oh well. I'm done looking! We'll just see if something comes along. Plus I'm way too immature for such a thing. And I'm too self centered haha. :) Well I hope I get another post in before the school year ends. :)

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AHHH

I'm sooooo excited for summer!! I was talking to Cami and we got so excited!! Once this month is over I'll have a full month of fun! In the month of may :) At the end of may I'm going to Washington for Sasquatch :) I know I've mentioned this before! But it really is awesome. I'll be seeing Modest Mouse for the FIFTH time :) Plus Wilco! And a shit ton of other bands!! I'm SOOOOO FREAKING HAPPY. I finally got done with my debate today and it's like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders :) haha. I'm pretty sure we lost but I dont even care it's over. Now I just gotta powerthrough this next month !!

yaayy